Samuel is 4months and 1 week old this week. I never could have imagined how amazing it is to be a mother. Children really are a wonderful treasure.
Samuel groggy after his restful night of sleep
Something else I never expected...exahustion. Along with the sweetness of motherhood comes countless sleepless nights(and days). Samuel is not a "good sleeper", he never has been. But this morning I woke up at 6:30 am. Thats right, Samuel went to sleep at 10:30 pm and woke up at 6:30 am!!! I couldn't believe it! I feel revived, a new woman!
The last 3 weeks Samuel has only slept in 1-2 hours increments. It has been trying, and my mood and patient have fell victim to my tiredness. I felt as exhausted as I did when I was pregnant and only sleeping 45mins at a time. I feel immensely blessed to have finally slept 8hours all at once for the first time since last April.
So will it last, or did God just know I needed to sleep at some point before I cracked? Im hoping its a permeant combination. Even though he seldom naps, Samuel is currently asleep. Maybe this is the start of something new!
Mark 6 tells the story of when Jesus fed 5,000 + people with 2 loaves of bread and 2 fish. Mark 6:31 says:
31 Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.”
As a mom I often am so busy carrying for others I cant eat or sleep or even shower or brush my teeth. But as with the disciple, such times are nessicary for the good of others. Im so blessed to know God does eventually provide time of rest.