Mommy

Being mommy is so difficult. It's mentally and physically demanding. But mostly it's messy and loud. And whenever I get close to being done, it happens.

 one of those beautiful moments that make the 2hrs of sleep worth it, and the extra skin on my tummy and the mess I just cleaned... Again, these little moments become worth it. Pearls of great value and reflections of our wonderful Heavenly Father.

He was riding down the "big hill" on his bike. Sam shook with fear, he put on the brakes and wouldn't go. Then his little voice

"Mom will you hold my hand"

Dumb, practical me

"You won't be able ride your bike down..." And a few other excuses that made no sense to my frightened boy who desperately needed me.

Sam grabbed my hand and held on tight, real right. His bike was right next to me. I always tell him it's ok to fall and get hurt. You don't have to be afraid of falling, you just have to get back up.

But he wasn't afraid of falling, he just didn't want to be alone. He wanted my presence, my hand, and we went hand in hand the rest of his bike ride. I am his security.

Some day he won't need me to hold his hand. But I'm so glad I got to hold it today.

And I will never grow out of m Heavenly Father. I can always hold his hand through scripture, prayer, and time with my family. He gains great joy from helping us. Do we need his pressence like a child needs their mommy? Is God my security? I beg God to give me a hunger and thrust for righteousness and to let me look only to him.

Thank you for holding my hand Sam. I will never forget our little ride around the block. 

Sam the 3year old Man

I could handle getting married, having a baby, even having 2 babies but Sam is not a baby anymore and I don't feel grown up enough to be his momma.

He is a treasure. He is compliant and generally needs to only be corrected once or twice before obeying. He loves kisses, hugs and words of affection. He is constantly telling me he loves me and thank you and the list goes on. He loves to help and frequently creates contraptions to help do a task. They don't alway work the way he was planning, but he is not shy about working till he gets it right. One of his best buds is an engineering friend we have. He frequently tells us of similar things he did as a child. My favorite moment this year was when Sam made a toilet in the living room... And used it(: Sam is most certainly going to change the world.

He enjoys people but has an introverted side and really struggled in large groups. 

He has changed so much since he was born or even one or two. I absolutely adore spending time with him. Any adventure is a good one! 

We are seriously considering home school. We love being a family. And I can't imagine him being gone all day. I am often told I need a break and will want him gone, but the older he gets the more I want to spend time with him. 

He loves to laugh and to make others laugh. He fills our house with great joy.

 Dear sweet Samuel, may you know the deep love of the God who hears. For you have been this love to us. 

Love Mom