Remember

I love to rock Sam to sleep. Usually the house is quiet except for some softly playing hymns. I can truly enjoy him and worship God, meditate on my many blessings. Tonight I had dishes do to do (its been 3 days...gross right!), laundry, homework and so much else. But I just wanted to rock him.

Because I am so blessed to have him. I am not perfect or even all that good of a person. And still God has entrusted me with sweet, wild, wonderful Samuel. I love his smile, his hugs and kisses (actually bites). I adore his laugh and even dream about it. There have been times when he smiles so big and laughs so hard, I cry... because theres no other way to express the great joy I feel.

I want to always remember unsurpassed joy. This is the joy of parenting, whether your child is still with you, or with Jesus, I believe all parents understand this joy.
So this is my reminder, next time Sam is teething, or screaming for 4+ hours or life seems too much.

 Joy eternal. Its peace that life does have a purpose and for me its peace that God is real. I can see him in Sam's smile and hear him in Sam's laugh.
Where do you experience joy?

Look we actually spend time together(=

Ok, time to read the blog again...(=